Chapter 372: Tang Si: "Especially Since You’re the First Person I’ve Ever Loved.
Chapter 372: Tang Si: "Especially Since You’re the First Person I’ve Ever Loved.
Song Yi was stunned and looked up to see the man’s exquisite face, his almond-shaped eyes deeply locking onto hers.
At that moment, her heart skipped a beat.
Tang Si lightly pressed his lips together, preparing to pat her shoulder to let her ride in the passenger seat.
But Song Yi instinctively shrank her shoulder, looking at him quietly with her fox-like eyes.
The man’s hand paused mid-air.
Song Yi watched his hand slowly retract in the air, she subconsciously licked her lips.
She didn’t understand why she had to dodge just then.
Tang Si realized that his position in her heart might no longer be the same as before when he could act recklessly.
Now he needed to be polite.
He pressed his lips together once more, stepped back two steps, and asked, "Can I get in the car?"
His voice was somewhat husky and tired.
Song Yi nodded, "Yes."
Tang Si thought it over and finally walked around the front of the car to the passenger seat.
He sat beside her without a word.
The car was so quiet that only the sound of their breathing could be heard. Song Yi tried not to be nervous, believing herself to be someone who remains calm in crisis.
But the man beside her, even in silence, had such a strong presence, overwhelming and fierce.
The whole car seemed enveloped in this aura.
Song Yi licked her lips, sneaking a glance at him.
He was leaning back in his seat, eyes closed, head tilted back, with a jawline and Adam’s apple that were sculpted and sexy, and his profile was perfectly refined.
Just moments ago, they were exchanging cold glances. Now he’s in the car and sitting there silently—what does that mean?
It was at this moment that the man suddenly opened his eyes and looked over.
Song Yi quickly diverted her gaze.
Under normal circumstances, he would have laughed and teased her.
Now he was looking at her from the side, his Adam’s apple moving, his voice steady and calm, "Song Yi, shall we talk?"
Hearing his voice, Song Yi felt her heart ache deeply.
Because it was so hoarse, so tired, every word that rolled out of his throat carried weariness.
"Okay." Song Yi turned her head too, meeting his gaze.
Song Yi’s fox-like eyes were calm but still charming, as if they could dye the whole world.
Tang Si lowered his eyes, remaining silent for a long while.
This was their first face-to-face conversation after a long time without contact.
Song Yi looked at Tang Si, clearly sensing the cautious emotions brewing within the man.
She wasn’t in a hurry, just waited quietly for him, the atmosphere like a clear spring, pure and pristine, leaving one afraid to disturb it.
Time passed without their notice, Tang Si lifted his head, "Just now coming out was because of Liu Qiang’s case, the leaders came over, and I escorted them out."
He explained.
Song Yi nodded.
Tang Si nodded as well, considering his words, "For someone I like, I have communication barriers."
His voice was calm, his eyes deeply fixed on Song Yi, "Especially for the first person I ever liked."
Tang Si’s tone suddenly softened, "Apart from our child, there won’t be another."
"So, sometimes, some things, I don’t say, and I don’t know how to express them, because it’s the first time, I need time to learn. When I don’t understand, I often say more and make more mistakes."
Song Yi stayed quiet, waiting for him to continue.
If that day’s events didn’t have a good explanation, she wouldn’t choose to easily forgive.
But today’s online incident, she wasn’t sure if the man before her had seen it, and if he had, she couldn’t just argue about their relationship matters right now.
"Imparting pain and sadness is a form of violence." Tang Si said hoarsely, lowering his eyes, "Because I can feel that you like me, and you are the only one I’m willing to approach and accept and whom I like. For this reason, I shouldn’t share bad things with you."
"After I tell you about it, I can’t make you not feel pain or sadness. This in turn causes you harm too, and if there’s pain one person can bear, I don’t want two to bear it together."
Tang Si never really had the urge to confide; he lived this way since childhood.
The man licked his lips, his voice so calm it remained on a single line, "I didn’t realize my cautious concerns would also hurt you, that day you asked me to think clearly and answer your question."
"In a short moment, I really couldn’t answer, if I answered briefly, I couldn’t finish telling my past, and that would be irresponsible to you."
"So now..." Tang Si’s Adam’s apple moved as he looked at Song Yi, "Shall I tell you my past, all about me, and let you decide if you still want me, is that okay?"
As he finished speaking, Song Yi could clearly see the anticipation in his eyes.
Song Yi: "Go ahead."
"What I said that day on the bridge was my concern; I was unsure if you would be happy with me, and uncertain of your emotions, which made me very anxious."
In the eyes of others, he was always strong, but now he’d shed all pretenses: "Seeing you hurt, I panic, I lose composure, I feel I haven’t done well. I won’t use first love as an excuse, I just think it’s my incompetence."
Song Yi pressed her lips together, understanding: "So on the bridge, you were giving me a way out, since I was leaving, you spoke first?"
Tang Si nodded, "That’s right."
"Since I can remember, possibly when I was two or three, my mother died. Before her death, she seemed to have mental issues, muttering to herself. I don’t know why, she always hit me, and Wen Heshang didn’t like her either."
"That night, I was sleeping with her. In the middle of the night, I woke up half-conscious, woken by the cold."
"On my hands, legs, I felt cold and sticky."
"I kept calling for my mom because the air was filled with a pungent smell of blood, but my mom didn’t respond."
"I switched on a lamp by myself, and the lamp cast a red light, then I discovered the entire bed was soaked with blood. I was also covered in blood."
"My mom lay next to me, she was dead. She had cut her main artery, lying right next to me. I didn’t know when she had died."
"I was scared to tears. Wen Xianghe came over after hearing the sound, startled too."
"Then he didn’t even look at me or my mom, he only cursed me as a jinx, bringing bad luck to my mother and family."
Tang Si said with a light chuckle, "I was too young to understand what he meant then."
"Pretty naive. He directly called someone to deal with my mom but did not care about me. That night he threw me into the courtyard, I caught a cold, because I was covered in blood, and I was afraid to move."
"Perhaps eventually he thought the sight of me standing in the courtyard would be noticed by others, so he called a nanny to change my clothes. Nannies follow the master’s lead; since he treated me badly, naturally the nanny wouldn’t be kind to me either, she directly left me in the bathroom."
"Already feverish from the cold, I lay in the bathtub for a long time, until I fell asleep, nearly drowning before I woke up suffocating."
"I changed my clothes myself, putting them on inside out and backwards, from a cold it turned into a high fever, and I fainted in front of him..."
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